Contemplation Contemplation

Well I'm out here in a new place with a new language, new people, new ways of doing things. I can't help but think a lot about different things. Mostly my mornings start out at 7:30am, 8 if i'm lucky ;). We do a short devotion and then we sometimes just wing it through the day, other days we have a plan. Either way I'm fine with because both teach me different things. I just had my first language "class" and it wasn't awful, but after a few weeks my tutor says that she won't speak any English to me (AHHHHHH!). That scream was a scream of excitement and terror mixed into one. I really love this place what little I've been here. it's only been 10 days and it feels like a month (in a good way).

I read through 1 John today, I really love that book. It is amazing for this place I'm in, loving others and how if one does not love his brother that the love of God is not in him. It's convicting, we all want God's love in us right? Not only is it scriptural but it just feels good to love. Even to love those who make you wanna scream and not for the fun of it, makes you feel good inside. I don't understand when people say, "I hate people" even generally speaking. How can you hate people? Specially if you proclaim to be Christian, Christ carried the cross for me, he knew I would need him to even 2,000 some odd years later, he knew I needed him too. So how can people hate people even if they use the excuse that they hate people they aren't close too? I don't understand, yes there are evil people in this world, but everyone has a bit of evil resonating in us but there is light, there is good in us too. So why not love people so that they might see your light then maybe they will make the choice to let their good overcome the evil.

1 John has convicted me in a strong way. Being here I need a constant reminder to love and keep loving even when i don't want to love anymore it's still a good idea to keep loving. God loved us, he sent Christ to love and save us so that we may be forgiven and love just as he did, see the trickle down effect here? When I return to America I may need to understand how to love even more than now, but here's a good spot to start. He will teach me all these things I need in order to be a better advocate for Him. Pray for the people of this place.

All to God