Excitement and fear

So today started two of my three missions classes. I love missions classes, obviously because I want to be a missionary, but especially now, especially since I'm getting closer to their reality. Soon they won't just be classes they will be my life. Ever wish someone gave you the handbook to this life? Well this is how I view these classes, pieces of the handbook for the rest of my life, although they don't hold all the answers, they are wonderful tools for the future.

In Missionary Life and Work, we answered questions about being a missionary. These questions made me think about this summer. Going to Bosnia this summer raises a lot of fears, excitement, and uncertainty, but excitement is the most prevalent among them all. My fears are finances, and how effective I will be when I get there. My excitements are the things I will learn there, How much it will strengthen my relationship with God, and more than anything the people who will come to know Christ. Also, beginning to love these people with a new love as a brother or sister in Christ. I guess uncertainties fall in the category between fear and excitement.

So although I am afraid of my deadlines and the fact that it is a lot of money, I know God has already paved the way for me. I am glad I have the excitement that I do, I think it trumps my fear. So here's to walking by faith, and not letting my silly eyes take a peek of the footsteps I take.

Peace.