Searching

I'm searching out my life. That's a weird statement to make but it's the honest truth. I think it's the best thing to do right now because of my missions trip coming up. Yes I'm totally excited about it but I understand the seriousness that comes with it, excitement can't overtake the importance of this summer.

The last blog I wrote I spoke about how impeccable God's timing was and is. Since that event happened I have been thinking a lot about God's timing in my life, not just His timing but His will. I've been digging deep into some harsh realities of my life. The fact that my service hasn't been all that great, I have been feeling an overwhelming pull to just serve. Serve unconditionally and happily. Also I have realized that missions is the right way to go, but I cannot even be in control of that. That is why I'm so stoked to go to Bosnia, I didn't choose it. I've been praying a lot about this because I'm very tired of living a life where I even want to be a little bit in control. This word CONTROL is such a huge factor in life that it completely constricts us. Control gives us fear and anxiety, I would rather give it to God.

I'm excited that missions is my life and that I feel that I have confirmation on that. This is one thing I'm sure of, and that is comforting. The Word must be my anchor, the will must be God's. I love God because He loved me first. My hope is that God will use me only for His will. I am excited to become the missionary that God will form me to be.

Peace.