blindly walking

So far in my journey into this summer I have tried some tactics to raise money. It is becoming more and more evident that God's people are better than baking stuff and selling them and making profit. Of course I knew this before, it is just so much more clear than when you just think about it. I haven't spoken in any churches, I haven't presented myself. I've sent letters and no responses, however this would worry me but in all honesty I'm not freaking out like I thought I would by this time with no responses. My mom is a wonderful woman, she is helping me by taking stuff to her work to sell, though it doesn't make an outrageous amount I'm still appreciative of her time and effort and what it does bring in. She is most definitely a child of God.

However I haven't heard much from churches, but I understand the process of board meetings and things. Once a month doesn't move very fast, although I do feel an urgency I have a feeling that God is going to show me something spectacular out of his people and their willing hearts. I have been thinking a lot about faith for the past couple of weeks. I have evaluated my level of faith and have decided I need a boost. I am striving to come to the point where I can fully walk by faith, and not look where I take my next step.

I learned this while duck hunting with my brother-in-law one very cold morning at about 4:30 am; When you step into the swamp you have to feel underneath your foot to decipher whether you will hit a log that will make you stumble and fall deeper into the swamp. Each step you take could send you into the murky depths of the swamp, cold and wet, oh yeah and miserable. The swamp at 5 am is not a very bright place so you are literally walking by faith with a little caution tagging along. Although you do have a fancy little light that is strapped around your head, believe me it's not much of a huge help.

The worst thing is being wet and cold, my sister Annie always says that her hell can't be made of fire, it has to be cold (she absolutely can't stand the cold). But this trip in retrospect was a great teacher of walking by faith and not by sight and having Christ guide you. Now I am going to compare my brother-in-law to Christ in this situation because he led me along watching after me so that I wouldn't fall. At odd moments I would hear him say "now watch out there is a big log here that your gonna have to step over and it's loose so be careful." Without him guiding me I would've been head deep in that swamp within minutes of stepping in.

I want that kind of faith in this mission. Every aspect I want to be faithful in God to provide as I work in doing my part. It is a little stressful but I know that if I have that faith then why worry? God says He knows our needs and he will provide for us. God is pretty amazing when we see what He can do, but even without that tangible evidence he is still pretty amazing.

All to you God.