Gods design is complicated

So throughout my time here I must say there are some things I didnt expect such as everyone eating at a coffee table together, and how crazy this grammar is in the language. But some things stand out among the rest. Some things surprise you, and what I speak of is not a good surprise, but in contradiction to that statement, this is something that is being used by God and I know it.

By now you are probably wondering what is this surprise you speak of? Well I am not at liberty to say but God is in control of it. Lets just say this thing that I am talking about is making me wonder and seek out God more, for wisdom, consolation, peace, and the right words when I need them. I am seeing strength grow and overcome fear in the people I am around. They can find humor in such a threatening situation. I have come to the conclusion that everything inside of me is now leaping for God as if this that has happened is the catalyst for my souls yearning.

It has made me pray with the most faith I have really ever used when praying, aside from some prayers every now and again. I have seen a love for God that doesnt cross my path too often among others. This thing which is not favored is teaching me things I never thought I would learn, this is quite the opposite way in which I thought I would learn but God works like that. He blindsides you and you cant do anything but notice. Gods design is complicated, and we should thank Him for that.

All to God

Contemplation Contemplation

Well I'm out here in a new place with a new language, new people, new ways of doing things. I can't help but think a lot about different things. Mostly my mornings start out at 7:30am, 8 if i'm lucky ;). We do a short devotion and then we sometimes just wing it through the day, other days we have a plan. Either way I'm fine with because both teach me different things. I just had my first language "class" and it wasn't awful, but after a few weeks my tutor says that she won't speak any English to me (AHHHHHH!). That scream was a scream of excitement and terror mixed into one. I really love this place what little I've been here. it's only been 10 days and it feels like a month (in a good way).

I read through 1 John today, I really love that book. It is amazing for this place I'm in, loving others and how if one does not love his brother that the love of God is not in him. It's convicting, we all want God's love in us right? Not only is it scriptural but it just feels good to love. Even to love those who make you wanna scream and not for the fun of it, makes you feel good inside. I don't understand when people say, "I hate people" even generally speaking. How can you hate people? Specially if you proclaim to be Christian, Christ carried the cross for me, he knew I would need him to even 2,000 some odd years later, he knew I needed him too. So how can people hate people even if they use the excuse that they hate people they aren't close too? I don't understand, yes there are evil people in this world, but everyone has a bit of evil resonating in us but there is light, there is good in us too. So why not love people so that they might see your light then maybe they will make the choice to let their good overcome the evil.

1 John has convicted me in a strong way. Being here I need a constant reminder to love and keep loving even when i don't want to love anymore it's still a good idea to keep loving. God loved us, he sent Christ to love and save us so that we may be forgiven and love just as he did, see the trickle down effect here? When I return to America I may need to understand how to love even more than now, but here's a good spot to start. He will teach me all these things I need in order to be a better advocate for Him. Pray for the people of this place.

All to God