Just give me my tiara

Hello all! Well this weekend has not been the most entertaining, however in my previous post I had discussed my hopes for this weekend. Although I had thought that I would be at home this weekend, I still have had moments of specific prayer for many different people, places, and things.

It has been revealed to me just what a princess I am. I use the term "princess" in a negative connotation. I say this because recently I have become without money, unable to buy even a simple fast food meal. I don't bring up this issue to make anyone feel pity on me but because in this experience I have realized how ridiculous I am. I have a supply of ramen noodles, popcorn, and miscellaneous things in my closet/cupboard to eat. I am also on a meal plan here at school where I can get 3 square meals a day. Now the weekdays aren't really the issue, but the weekends kill money since our cafeteria is not open.

I say I am a princess because although the same food everyday can get quite boring, I can eat ramen for quite sometime until I go home. However, I find myself telling myself that this isn't good enough. I know that there are plenty of people around the world who would love to get their hands on a box of ramen noodles, and I'm not content with having this twice a day for two days. Yes, a folly, and very intolerant, and ungrateful.

Well, there is my princess-y ways in the cold light of day for you, although I'm sure that's not the only ways in which I am all princess-like.

I hope your weekend has gone swimmingly my friends. Things in my post-graduation situation are lining up in ways, I will be updating on that as soon as I have more information, and hopefully more opportunities that come my way. Hope you've had a blessed Lord's day!!

All to God

Weighted

This one is gonna be short and sweet. I feel weighted down, and I need Jesus. I want to dedicate this weekend to a lot of prayer, not only on my behalf but on the behalf of those I love, and on behalf of the world. Lately God has been calling me to intercessory moments, this is where I find my prayers the most dedicated. A lot of people I know are just now going through things that are hard for them.

I've woken up with this weight, and went to bed with this weight. When I feel its presence I can only utter words to God. The time is now to pray for my brothers and sisters, as is any other time, however, it tugs on my heartstrings and I feel its intensity.

I thank God that I have the privilege of communicating with him on the behalf of my brothers and sister, the world, and of me.

All to God  

"Shining" armor of God?

Today I feel drained, and I feel blessed, and I feel raw. When I say I feel raw, it's the kind of raw that only happens after you have scrubbed skin to hard. It's not altogether bad, I feel the areas in my life that need more awakening batting their eyelids in a sleepy stupor, realizing that today they are late to work because the alarm didn't sound.

Yet these parts of my life are getting ready for work, yet again, fueling the flame for motivation and labor in the Kingdom's work. But instead of putting on business suits, they are putting on overalls, gardening gloves, a sun hat, and boots. These parts of my life are gearing up to get dirty, walk many-a-mile, and possibly even get a few scratches along the way.

I feel like the calling I feel ever-present that God has put in my heart is not one of glamour, or a clean-cut lifestyle. Yet, I feel that he has called me to "get my hands dirty" in ministry and really dig deep into the soil. I feel that I should be investing my time with those deemed "unclean" by today's society, go out and find the broken, the hidden, the outcast, even those in that category that are rich by the standards of culture.

But today, I feel drained, blessed, and raw, simply because I have noticed my areas of lack, I have wonderful friends who live above reproach and remind me to do this also, and because I am mending those places in my life to be stronger for ministry. Under the overalls there is armor, and somehow...it's got to much of a shine on it for me.

All to God

Good days and good plans

Today has been full of great things. It has certainly been a wonderful Lord's day in the life of Emilie. And guess what? I would like to share it with you.

First of all let me just say I am thankful for a mother who sees a need and fills it, siblings who make life fun, and a certain fella who makes me smile. These people and many more make life worth living in itself, and they have made the past 22 years wonderful.

Second, I have finally finished my application for the 2013-2014 year long stay in Eastern Europe. This is a small but significant step in the process of actually getting there with this organization. I am very excited about moving on and moving forward to this next year.

Along with all of this things seem to be squaring away as far as a living situation after graduation, the only thing missing is a job. Soon I will be getting applications of another kind in hopes of some sort of employment somewhere so that I can actually sustain myself in this support raising part of life. This is something you can pray for, a job is needed and so is support.

If you or someone you know would like to support a missionary please...PLEASE..you can find me here where my e-mail is displayed. Prayer support, financial support, it makes no difference just let me know via this email, facebook, or if you know me like that...with a phone call. I'm not bashful, I need money for this and I'm calling on brothers and sisters I may not even know, but hope to know, and willing to know, and also pray for. I'm also not ignorant, I know I can do nothing without prayer (which sometimes we forget), this is also needed in abundance.

Thank you for praying and for spreading the word if you can. You all are great.

All to God

We talk to each other in words and phrases

I want to write something to you, I'm failing at letting you in a little bit. I have a frustration that I am currently dealing with, one that is somewhat of a plague it seems with humankind. This crazy, unimaginable ability of the human race that is yet tampered with in a positive way. An ability that would make feelings known, directions clearer, leadership more noticeable, and relationships all the more better.

Communication

Communication..to "commune" means to talk together with profound intensity or intimacy, an interchanging of thoughts or feelings as the ever convenient dictionary.com would have it. What in the world do we have if we do not have our opinions and convictions, and furthermore the ability to make them known. I am sad to say I am a not immune to the unfortunate ways of letting communication slip, but we all are guilty of this in some area or another.

We try to pack it away into the recesses of our minds if we have an issue with a friend. We try to overlook, and overlook, and overlook, until the issue cannot be overlooked anymore...and usually at that point the damage is done. We try to be leaders and sometimes we forget one of the most important pieces of information thus making chaos for all those who need the information the most. In marriages there are mishaps in communication that leads to arguments and blame.

It is an essential part of our human ability to make everything frustrating, dire, or important known. It is an item in our warehouse of peacemaking, and leadership training that are used not nearly enough. This is a struggle for me and many others I'm sure. We just have to learn to open our mouths and speak the truth in love.

All to God