When Thank You Doesn't Feel Like Enough

I'm so sorry that you haven't heard from me in a while, as said in previous posts this month is a little crazy! The good news about all the crazy is that it's the good kind of crazy and I'll that that any day.

Anyway, I just wanted to talk about how when you have been given gifts and how just saying thank you to anyone who gave those gifts seems meager and a little out of place. I don't mean that the thanks is out of place but the absolute smallness it brings. I have been given many gifts this month, sacrificial, financial gifts and I say "thank you!" and it doesn't seem to be enough, I feel myself lacking in expressing my gratitude of which there is an abundance.

The overwhelming feeling that comes from these gifts is not just one of "Yes! I'm closer!" but 95% "God must be ready to use me for something because I'm not this incredible." I could never thank God enough FOR ANYTHING anyway, but I still praise him in my small mind and small soul. Everyone who I have encountered that has supported me financially or truly prayerfully throughout this support-raising endeavor has meant a monumental amount to me.

This road has had it's encouraging moments and also those moments where it seems I might not ever reach the goal. I still have a little left to raise but it is far less daunting than before. To have people believe in me and the work that will be done is humbling and encouraging because like I said before...I'm really not that great, but I have a great God leading me into this field for his great purposes. Though I might be a girl who is not the brightest crayon, the one who never won many great awards, the average and sometimes below average student who would try her best not to let distractions take hold, the one who was OK at sports but nothing special...

I KNOW

 I am the girl that God calls his daughter, I am one he has raised up to love him and go where he wants me to go, I am his willing heart, I am unafraid because of his power to overcome anything, I am in his peace, I am in his strength, I am cloaked with salvation able to share it with anyone, I am God's person...one of them at least. I am no better than the rest of humanity, but in God I am everything I need to be despite my imperfections, inhibitions, and insecurities.

It is humbling and causes me (along with many other instances in my life) to glorify God, because without his stirring in your hearts, without him giving you the faith that your money and your prayers are an investment for the Kingdom then why should you support me? This one small person, with so many flaws. It has been God from the start and it will be God when we reach the finish.

Thank you all for what you have done, it has been incredible to see the Lord move and use his timing perfectly.

All to God