Give me the River

I wish I could sing "I've got peace like a river" but the simple truth is I've got peace like a stormy sea. Now when I say this I mean in Christ I definitely have peace like a river, I am not upset or anything, I am just to dang eager! Everything inside of me is just far too ready to be done, and be out there. I'm not talking about just for a summer (although I am super excited about that) but for my life.

One of the most unfortunate things about being a missions major is that you hear about everything you need to know about being a missionary. You become trained and equipped (as far as one can possibly be). But after a while you get tired of having classes and having exams, you want to BE THERE ALREADY! But then you realize.....you can't, rushing these things are not very wise, and possibly might be outside of God's will. Obviously there are still things to be done here, whether it is being more deeply rooted in your walk with God so that when you go, you are ready, really ready. Or it could be that you have a purpose to fulfill and until that is done you cannot move onto the next stage.

It is still frustrating nonetheless.

My heart is trying to tell my mind to calm down without erasing the passion. It's not working too well but this combative feeling is emotionally draining. Anyway, I am striving for the "peace like a river" mindset in most situations because I really don't need to rush things. God knows what he is doing and he has time in his hands. So yeah if you could see emotion in someone and you saw mine....you would pretty much think I'm hyperactive or something like that. Hey maybe I am...who knows? Just needing that peace that

apparently flows calmly like that proverbial river.

All to God