Devoted sisters

So since the days have grown closer to the time that I am legitimately the only single person in my family, me and my sister have set aside Wednesday afternoons, after our last class of the day we go to our local coffee shop and just hang out and talk. Her life is catapulting into wedding planning and still is occupied by homework and things that take her time academically. So in response to the rising moment of the nuptials and thus her having a life that is even more consumed with upholding a marriage, job, school, and responsibilities within a church, we have decided to spend a while together during the week.

 Unfortunately when my oldest sister was getting married I was too young and far too naive to understand that I would not be able to interact much with just me and her together. However, in light of reviewing the above plan and distributing that time properly between sisters I must admit I have been unfair, I have failed in regard to finding a specific time that me and my oldest sister can just sit down and just be with one another. I see her every weekend and we sit at my mom's house together, sometimes it is just me and her, other times it's every one. This is great, I love having my family around me, but the time I share with one sister is not the same kind of time I share with the other.

I'm not ok with this aspect of distributing relationship time with my sisters, I love them both very much. I love spending time at the coffee shop, I would not stop it for anything, it's a good time and feels very nice afterward to know what is happening in my sister's life. However it does not feel good to constantly be in uncertain relationship time, although that impromptu time with my biggest sister is valued, it's nice to know that you will have that time.

But I won't always have this certain time with either of them.

Planning on going into the mission field overseas does not give that certainty of time, my sister getting married does not give me certainty of time, my oldest sister finding a career and being a ministers wife does not give me certainty of time. 

This means that in the time that we have now to be together is valuable and I have not been using it fairly or to the extent that I should because it is a blessing. I love them both greatly, God put them in my life to be wonderful support, bountiful love, and a pull back down to reality when needed. I have a responsibility to be that to them as well, equally. If I cannot nurture relationships the way they need to be nurtured then I have no business on the mission field. That is not the driving factor as to why I want to enhance the relationship between me and my sisters but it is an important parallel. The driving factor is I love God, I love my family, my sisters are terribly important people in my life so I should want them both in my life. I do! This is why I have come to this conclusion. The Bible says that three strands are strong, well, we are three sisters of the same blood, different personalities, serving the same God. He has blessed me greatly.

All to God