Check yourself

Lately I have been contemplating about whether or not I act more like a pagan or like the Christian I profess to be. There are different ways in which one can slip into less than stellar Christian character:

In the mind

In our words

In our actions

In what we watch

In what we listen too

I've been re-evaluating what it is that I do in all these aspects. I got to tell you that it's strange to ask yourself "am I a pagan in this aspect of my life?" Since school started a small part of me is tired, and lacking, and tearing my nerves up, and all that junk that comes along with school, and well....life.

Then I start to wonder if apathy is starting to invade my life. I quickly start to pray that it will go away, that the fire can be stoked again in my heart. But when apathy starts to grow, what I listen to, what I think, what I feel, and what I say can start to waver. It's not a comfortable feeling but once ingrained it's hard to get rid of. 

It's something to overcome and it happens to us all. Pagan is such a harsh thing to call someone let alone yourself. Something I never want to fess up and call myself. Check yourself.

All to God