Singularity

A sensitive subject, one that many people like me would love to erase from our daily living or at least remedy the situation. One that seems daunting and not so easy to just live with at times. It is partially our fault why we live with this label and it doesn't necessarily hold a negative connotation. The solution comes with stipulations and preference that we must be careful to not overlook, and not overdo when applying this solution into our lives. So here it is:

Being Single.

It's something that plagues both men and women alike, and it can feel like freedom and a cage all at the same time. I don't normally complain about this part of my life because my philosophy is keep living a life for the Lord and either he will allow someone to come into this life of mine or fulfill this life in a whole different way. Either way I am not lacking, and I know this for certain.

But as women are mostly wired to want this relationship with a mate or potential mate it can get a bit...sad. This dip in the road in some cases last for a very long time, but in cases such as mine they last in short intervals. It happens when I see people truly in love with each other and our God, it is almost like the perfect team. It happens when media gets in the way and I watch one of those dastardly love movies that I normally try to avoid. But both of these scenarios do not come without a bit of joy, knowing that the so in love couple whose love exudes love for God and from God makes the world a better place and the Lord is glorified in it. 

I am extremely fortunate that God chose me for the work that I will do. I'm glad that I can read about single women missionary predecessors who have weathered this storm brilliantly. They are an inspiration and God certainly has given women a strength that many cannot fathom. I undoubtedly have my bouts of "why can't I have that?" However, every time I ask that question God almost immediately answers back convincing me that I am really okay. 

I thought about this the other day, about if I am no man's bride, no man's love, how inevitably one day I will meet my first love, the one that death will never separate, the one I will literally abide with forever. I know it sounds super-spiritual, but how beautiful will that be, to look directly into the eyes of Jesus and have him say with his very mouth the words "I love you, and always have." I mean yes, the love of a man is beautiful and when that love is reciprocated there is a bond like nothing else on earth. I'm not going to lie and say that it is not something I hope for myself one day, but I am constantly comforted by the peace and love of God. Many days I feel fulfilled and pleased with my status in life.

The standard "graduate from college, marry your sweetheart, have a couple of babies" thing doesn't always find itself in our paths. For those who do find it in your path, it is wonderful, and it is a joyous thing! For those of us still walking our journey with just the good ol' Holy Spirit, we too are blessed with the abundance and fullness that life brings, and we should never think of ourselves as less, or only a half of something because it is God that makes us whole. 

So yes, I'm single, sometimes I really don't want to be, other times I'm perfectly content in doing so. Either way I am completely blessed with people I love surrounding me every single day, and I'm never alone. All my single ladies, can I get an amen? 

All to God