What happens when: you feel stuck

For a while now I've been contemplating my role in this world as a Christian. I have decided that I've been stuck for sometime now. Stuck in my Bible college student mindset, small country traditional church fellowship, but I have been stuck mostly because I won't let my mouth move. Aside from the fact that I basically stay on campus most of the time, when I am around non-Christians I think about "well I wonder if they know Jesus", but I never ask the question.

Realizing this stuckness I've gotten myself into, I have also realized the amount of people that have come to know Jesus and accept him because of my ministering to them.

Zip.

This has troubled my heart and mind this week especially. Not that numbers count, if I accompany God in bringing someone to him, just one, then that's means to rejoice until death. However, I've tried before, it was back when I didn't know much about discipleship, how to nurture a baby Christian, or anything like that, I just knew that I wanted to see them in heaven one day. Happy, and free.

So what happens when you feel stuck? What happens when life feels mundane? When you always know what you should say, but you never let it out? What happens when you feel stuck in the church? Well you can wallow, or do something about it. It's up to the willingness of the one who feels stuck. Prayer is always a HUGE necessity.

God. wants. us. to. talk.

When I was overseas I didn't really feel stuck, I felt open and ready to have conversation about Christ with those who didn't know him. Life wasn't mundane, different things happened everyday, unexpected things. It was like breathing in new air (even though the air quality there was not the greatest). I had desire to speak to the people and tell them about Jesus constantly, I had no distraction from this desire (i.e. homework, classes, work, etc.).

I have the desire to tell people about Jesus in the U.S. A PRETTY STINKIN HUGE DESIRE. But here I feel stuck. Now, I'm not whining about how college takes away from life and it just so hard to get out there. The fact is, when we are stuck...we got ourselves there some how, some way.

It's all my fault

I take all responsibility for everything I have just admitted to you all. It's not college's fault, or my workload. It's my willingness faltering and I realize it, therefore I have stricken myself with this stuckness. Maybe some of you feel the same in some areas? I don't know, stuckness is no fun, and I'm praying to God that myself along with any others who feel this stuckness can become unstuck.

All to God